Setting myself up...

It's been awhile since I've written. 

I apologize. 

I never meant it to happen.

But, well.... it did.

Me and my little monkeys...

Other things got in the way (as they often do), but one of the commitments that I've made to myself for this new year is to write at least twice a week.  I'm going to start out with Wednesdays and Mondays, but we'll see whether those days work out...

Because, frankly, I've missed y'all. 

In a lot of ways, 2012 was a good year...

I have to admit though, looking back, I have a tendency to think about what didn't go right.  I'm not certain why I'm not a more positive human being. 

Maybe it's part of the addiction... And, then again, maybe not....

But I'm working on it.  (Hey, I'm a work in progress....A serious work in progress....)  Along with a bunch of other stuff...

So, in furtherance of that goal, before I go into the rest of my goals for 2013, I want to acknowledge some of the good stuff that happened this year...

So, yeah, I still have a weight goal... (What can I say, I'm a girl...)  I actually did great this year.  I got within 2 lbs of my goal.  I've gone to the gym 3 days a week almost every week in the last year.  Whether I wanted to or not.  Whether I felt like it or not.  Whether I had the time to or not.  I just kept asking myself, "would this excuse have stopped me from using?"  The answer is invariably no.  Because there weren't excuses not to use...

Even though I believe I've gained some weight back (haven't been back on a scale in the new year yet) in the last couple of months (I went off of the rails when we were displaced by Hurricaine Sandy and I've not managed to drag myself back on track...), I'm WAY stronger than I was when I started out last year.  I'm proud of myself for sticking with a workout program for a whole year.  And this year's going to be even better.  By the end of 2013, I want to be able to consistently run 5K in under 30 minutes.

And I'm pretty sure I can be back to where I was last year by bikini season...

Second, I've managed to move to Pennsylvania and be closer to where I want to end up in my personal life.  I'm not as alone as I was in Staten Island.  I'm much happier.  It's been good for me.  And for my kids.

Finally, I am proud of the way that I have moved forward with my life.  I've just passed my one year divcorceaversary.  And I really feel like I've moved on.  Completely.

I've been thinking a lot about what my goals are for 2013 and I've made 3 categories of goals.  First, there's the relatively easily attainable goals.  Then there are the stretch goals.  And, finally, there are the "wow, I don't think I can make it happen, but it'd be really damn cool if I did" goals.

And I'll tell you what they are on Monday....

Happy New Year Y'all!

Glad to be back....

Keep Coming Back.