Getting Thrown

I'm sure that I've said it before, but I'm a laizzez faire kind of girl.  If it makes you happy and it's not hurting other people, then please... by all means... have a great damn time...

But that doesn't mean that I understand some of the things that people do.

At all.

Nobody learns to ride if they don't
get back on the horse when they've been thrown.

Sometimes it's because it's outside my scope of experience.  Sometimes it's because I can't imagine making the decisions that the other person is making.  Sometimes it's because the person is out of their damn mind.... 

But I digress...

I've worked so hard on myself.  On getting sober.  On changing the underlying personality issues.  On getting past the hurts and scars of my past.

And in many ways I've been successful. 

But, in many ways, I haven't.... yet.

I'm a work in progress.  Probably always will be.

Which is why I don't understand people who choose to stay stuck.  People who know that they have a problem and aren't fighting tooth and nail to change it. 

Now, don't get me wrong.  I know that there are people who are trying as hard as they can who aren't successful.  And I know that there are people who are trying but fail. 

And, if you're anything like me, when you fail, you pick your ass right back up off of the ground and get back on the horse.  Even when you're pretty sure that the horse might throw you again.  Because some day... Some day, I believe, I'll learn to ride... (OK, enough of the horseback riding metaphor...)

Why? 

Well, for me, it's because I'm stubborn as hell.  (Stop laughing....Yeah, you.  You know who you are....)

But I don't understand people who don't try.  Who don't give it their all. 

Is it fear?  Is it laziness?  Is it complacency?

What the hell do I know?  I'm no psychic. 

What I do know is this.... I know that if you never get back on the horse, you'll never ever have that feeling of flying when you learn to ride... (Hey, it was my metaphor, I can pick it back up any time I want....)

And I want to fly.  And those people who don't are missing out.

So, are you willing to keep getting back on the horse?  Even if you might fall?  Even if the fall hurts? 

I always will.  Will you?

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