Sometimes, I don't know what's the matter with me.
I think it may just be a culmination of the last few weeks. Maybe I'm lonely. Maybe it's because my kids were gone on vacation.
Or maybe it's me. Hey, maybe it's my period. Who the hell knows?
I'm not a weepy girl. Well, not most of the time.
But these last couple of days have been bad. I've been falling apart to music, books, TV shows.... you name it.
And I really can't figure out why.
I've realized though that the why doesn't matter.
What matters is the emotion.
I have to say, I'm not a big fan of it.
But I'm having trouble pulling myself back. I've suffered with depression from time to time over the years and I know, once I get here, it's hard to come back.
Enough is enough though. And I know it's really up to me. I'm the only one who can stop this.
So, I'm setting a limit.
I'm going to shake it off.
And I mean today.
Whatever it takes. Because I'm no good to anyone like this.
Least of all me.
Just Keep Coming Back
Can so relate and am on the same boat today. Getting it together to be able to move forward. It's hard, but in the end...like you said,"Enough is enough though. And I know it's really up to me. I'm the only one who can stop this."
ReplyDeleteThank you for posting. I needed to read this today :)
Gotta tell you a story, happened this morning: Fellow, sober 4 years, shared that 4 years ago I (steveroni-baloney!) told him he would always have the kind of day he made up his mind to have. (I do not recall telling him that, BTW!)
ReplyDeleteHe then said ever day since then he has made up his mind to have a good day...and that is what happens..every day, rain or shine! His name is Dave. He always says, "I LOVE AA!"
PEACE!