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buried under all that candy?
That said, sugar is definately it's own addiction.
And it's a nasty one.
And I am an addict, without question.
I start eating sugar and I just can't stop. I find myself eating whatever I can find in order to get my sugar "fix". I've found myself eating icing from the container. I've found myself eating brown sugar. It's crazy.
And since yesterday was Halloween, I thought this would be a good time to talk about the sugar hangover.
For me, it's almost exactly like an alcohol hangover. Headache and gerneral irritability are a given. Nausea and self loathing are generally present as well.
And then the shame starts... The Committee starts it's judgmental mambo and I hear, "You fat slob. Why don't you stop before you're the size of a house."
So, why do I keep doing it to myself? I don't know. I'm an addict.
I'm giving myself a break from the judgment about eating the sugar today. And I'm telling the Committee to shut the hell up.
It made me think of this quote from "Eat, Pray, Love" by Elizabeth Gilbert:
“Let me ask you something, in all the years that you have...undressed in front of a gentleman has he ever asked you to leave? Has he ever walked out and left? No? It's because he doesn't care! He's in a room with a naked girl, he just won the lottery. I am so tired of saying no, waking up in the morning and recalling every single thing I ate the day before, counting every calorie I consumed so I know just how much self loathing to take into the shower. I'm going for it. I have no interest in being obese, I'm just through with the guilt. So this is what I'm going to do, I'm going to finish this pizza, and then we are going to go watch the soccer game, and tomorrow we are going to go on a little date and buy ourselves some bigger jeans.”
And you know what? She's absolutely right. I've got to work on restraining the self-loathing....
But I'm definately hung over today.
Anyone else with a sugar hangover today?
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