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| Is it just me, or does it look like there's someone buried under all that candy? |
That said, sugar is definately it's own addiction.
And it's a nasty one.
And I am an addict, without question.
I start eating sugar and I just can't stop. I find myself eating whatever I can find in order to get my sugar "fix". I've found myself eating icing from the container. I've found myself eating brown sugar. It's crazy.
And since yesterday was Halloween, I thought this would be a good time to talk about the sugar hangover.
For me, it's almost exactly like an alcohol hangover. Headache and gerneral irritability are a given. Nausea and self loathing are generally present as well.
And then the shame starts... The Committee starts it's judgmental mambo and I hear, "You fat slob. Why don't you stop before you're the size of a house."
So, why do I keep doing it to myself? I don't know. I'm an addict.
I'm giving myself a break from the judgment about eating the sugar today. And I'm telling the Committee to shut the hell up.
It made me think of this quote from "Eat, Pray, Love" by Elizabeth Gilbert:
“Let me ask you something, in all the years that you have...undressed in front of a gentleman has he ever asked you to leave? Has he ever walked out and left? No? It's because he doesn't care! He's in a room with a naked girl, he just won the lottery. I am so tired of saying no, waking up in the morning and recalling every single thing I ate the day before, counting every calorie I consumed so I know just how much self loathing to take into the shower. I'm going for it. I have no interest in being obese, I'm just through with the guilt. So this is what I'm going to do, I'm going to finish this pizza, and then we are going to go watch the soccer game, and tomorrow we are going to go on a little date and buy ourselves some bigger jeans.”
And you know what? She's absolutely right. I've got to work on restraining the self-loathing....
But I'm definately hung over today.
Anyone else with a sugar hangover today?
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Absolutely. Besides being Halloween, it was just one of those sugar and more sugar days. A chocolate cupcake with chocolate icing, dark chocolate M&Ms (dark is healthy, right?) and candy corn. UGH. My head hurts and I'm exhausted from crashing. But, as I said in my anniversary meeting last night, it doesn't matter because I didn't drink. And, in my case, didn't pick up cigarettes either. Sometimes a girl's just gotta do what a girl's gotta do.
ReplyDeleteI gained 20 lbs. when I quit doing cocaine, speed, and living on liquor. I am now a slightly squishy size 8, and I'm OK with that. Bottom line, I'd rather be fat than dead. (And yes, I know a size 8 isn't fat -- it's normal.)
ReplyDeleteI do agree that overeating, sugar addiction and alcoholism share roots: self-loathing and compulsiveness. I've been sober for 4 1/2 years and I still hear the siren song of the donut drive-through. My hope is that, through working a good 7th step, the character defects that cause me to rely on external substances (of all kinds, including Snickers bars) will be removed.
Thanks for the post!
Deena: I love your blog. I'm not sugar hungover. One of the few Halloweens I haven't overdone it. What's that they say about alcoholism? Physical, spiritual, emotional. I found that taking an iron supplement helps with sugar cravings, but before that, all bets are off. It was ridiculous.
ReplyDeleteYES! I threw a halloween party and binged on sugar and red bull. The next day I woke up and had legit hangover symptoms... and Ive been sober for three months! WTF?!?!
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