My point is that addicts are masters at mental masturbation.
And no addict actually wants to be an addict. NONE of us. Part of the way that we try to avoid admitting that we're addicts is that we play this game. It's called, "I'm not an addict if..."
All addicts have played it to some extent.
Some of us more than others.
Some of us WAY more than others...
If you're an addict, you'll recognize the game. If you're not, you're just going to have to trust me that we all play it.
Admittedly, I haven't played in a long time. But I'm pretty sure I remember how it's played...
I say, "I'm not an addict if...." and then I add some ridculous restriction that I think "proves" that I'm not an addict like:
I'm not an addict if I only drink wine.
I'm not an addict if I didn't drink while I was on antibiotics.
I'm not an addict if I only drink on the weekends.
I'm not an addict if I can stop using for a week.
I'm not an addict if I only snort coke at parties.
I'm not an addict if I can go out with my friends who are drinking and not drink.
Guess what? Here's the thing about the game.
It's just a game.
For real, you're an addict if you're playing the game. Non addicts don't feel it necessary to justify whether or not they're addicts.
Not without someone asking them. Not to themselves. Not ever. Really they don't...
Sorry hon. Sucks, doesn't it?
Have you been playing the game? What is your favorite "I'm not an addict if...."? I'd love to hear...
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